Failed First Try – A Dramatic Encounter

It’s like a scene from the movies – the way we crossed roads.

According to my earlier post, I was supposed to confess my feelings for him if I were to meet him again. But the run-in was too damn surprising so I wasn’t ready at all… Worst – I panicked and froze-walked – penguin style.

He must think I am an idiot or something.

I’m super useless. I prepared so long for this moment and I just screwed it up. I was really too freaking nervous to even look up. I don’t know what the hell happened to the usual me. I’m pretty confident with everything else. But when it comes to him, I’m chicken shit. I transform to this spineless useless liquid shit. Urgh.

Why dramatic? It’s not like our meetings have been any less unusual. But today was really special. God, please forgive me. Although You gave me such a wonderful opportunity and such a wonderful place to do it, I was possessed. Please give me another chance!

You know my school is very green like this but lesser trees and more open spaces.

He was coming from the left horizontal and I was coming from the front vertical… For some reasons, no other students were there! We could see each other walking towards the same junction and my heart was BOM BOM BOM BOM lol… “Woman, will it be too weird if you suddenly walk back now? Woman, don’t do it! It’s too obvious you’re running away from him! And woman! Don’t stop walking that’s even worse! Just act natural just act natural! WOMAN!!! STOP FREEZING!!!”

LOL I obviously wasn’t natural. I was stoned! This is very useless…… I am useless.

What the hell, we have thousands of students on campus but at that moment, no one was at the crossroad… Stupid cupid. And all this happened during the rare 15 minutes break that I had and I was running from a place to another place!

I had the perfect opportunity but I threw it away… God, please give me another chance.. I swear I’ll do it!!!